Too often I find myself brooding over what I perceive as a lack of reciprocation in the actions that I have taken in life. It seems as though I have provided assistance and compassion and guidance for others. Job felt much the same way, and said as much.
“24Yet does not one in a heap of ruins stretch out his hand, and in his disaster cry for help? 25Did not I weep for him whose day was hard? Was not my soul grieved for the needy?” – Job 30:24-25 (ESV)
I feel as though I provide help for those in need, much like Job, and in return I am left in the cold when my time of need arises, as Job does as well.
“26But when I hoped for good, evil came, and when I waited for light, darkness came.” – Job 30:26 (ESV)
I feel abandoned when there is something I need, or have asked for, and do not receive in return. I give and give and serve and serve, only to be left out in the cold when I am in need.
But am I? Man only thinks of himself as it is in our nature to do so. Am I thinking of this all wrong as a man? I should be thinking of how I can glorify God and then look to Him for my reward and the reciprocation on the work that I have done. It really makes no difference what man thinks of the work I have done, I do not do any of it for glory in this world. I don’t know why it matters to me that I receive from this world.
My work serving others is driven by my work for God and therefore the reward I receive is from Him. I need to be looking for light in Him and know that there is no darkness there. I look for good in Him and know that there is no evil there. I look for God and know there is nothing or no one else there to provide for me.
When looking for the reciprocation for the work you have done, where are you looking? Are you seeking the validation from man? What would it be like if you looked to God to light your way?
Trevor's Thoughts 