God is very deliberate in all of His actions. There is nothing left to chance and there are no coincidences.
“19And he said, ‘I will make all my goodness pass before you and will proclaim before you my name “The Lord.” And I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and will show mercy on whom I will show mercy.’” – Exodus 33:19 (ESV)
When I read this verse, I think to myself, is that why I don’t feel as though I am getting all that I want from God, He does not feel gracious to me?
The answer is NO. I do not feel that I am getting what I “deserve”, because I have gotten what God knows I need. God is and has been gracious to me with what He knows is in the best interest of me. He may be keeping me from things that will cloud my mind and turn me away from Him, like fame, fortune, & recognition. I have to remember that God gives what I need and His grace is demonstrated in that provision and not in getting everything I want.
God will provide for and grant me that which is good for me when I need it as He determines. He listens to my pleas just as He listened to the plea of Moses in the passage Exodus 33:12-23. God will give graciously when I ask, but He will not give more than I need so as to keep me on the path to Him. If He were to give everything I want, I would certainly lose my way and worship the things I have before me.
God gives graciously to me at His choice. He provides for me all that is needed, in abundance and when asked.
Are you aware of God’s provisions? What kind of things are you asking God to provide? Are you okay with God’s gracious giving at His choice and for your needs?